Conversations

So I've been told I can carry good conversations... or just keep someone engaged verbally.

I'd like to agree with the vast majority that say that, but sometimes I beg to differ. I listen well... I will sit on the phone or next to you and listen to your every word and try to analyze it in my own head to what you are trying to tell me.  Sometimes I have no words to respond and sometimes I have major opinions on the matter.   I do like to talk... but I also like to listen, especially when the other person needs that extra ear/shoulder.

When I do think about people who carry good conversations, I think about the topics that relate to every day life or the news or politics or something more interesting then my problems and gossip hotline.  I try to keep up with politics, but I do not find that very interest... I mean I think if I really would just open my mind to what ever it is that is going on with our government or with other countries and their 3rd world problems, but I can never keep up.

I found myself in awe of many people this past few weekends and just how they would talk and how much information they knew, as to where I was stunned and just sat there with, what I'm thinking, a confused look on my face. My thoughts were "Is he really trying to sell me on the idea that Missouri is a great place to live? How the flip does he even know about the housing market and education system when he lives in Texas and grew up in Arkansa?"  I mean really I have no idea about the housing market other then it may be too late to buy soon if the market increases.  I feel like if I knew more about all of that I could carry a decent conversation... instead I sat there, smiled, and continued to be fascinated with the information that was pouring out of this man's mouth...

I mean I can carry a conversation do not get me wrong. I would be the one engaging with questions that can lead to so many different answers just so you could talk, or sometimes I would be the one talking, but usually about my every day life situations or problems.  I joke around a lot and sometimes I get inappropriate depending on who I am talk to (wink wink) lmaoooo.

But yeah enough of that random rant... who is up for a conversation regarding that missing malaysia plane? I mean I was so fascinated with how it just DISSAPPEARED!!! Anyone?

New Found Love

Randomness at it's best...

So I have been slacking with blogging and all that, I just haven't really had the time or energy to sit here and write/type about just everyday life I guess. So here I am... trying to avoid all this work on my desk, but just for a little bit. At least 15 minutes!!!

So w/in the past year I have been pretty busy. I have fallen in love. I get to be with this new love every day, whether it be early in the morning or when I get off I get to jump in there just get my love on for about an hour or so... CROSSFIT... has become the new beau!! Literally. I go either at 5:30am or 4:00pm every day and just get in there and do the WODs (Work Outs of the Day) and if I have time I stay a little longer and work on other movements.  It will be our 1 year anniversary next month and I'm excited to celebrate that day with the FILTHY 50 that day!! I'll probably die and it will probably take me forever, but the thing is... I am proud to have stuck to one form of fitness for an entire year!!

I have learned a lot about myself in regards to working out and having to push myself to get better and stronger.  I love lifting and I initially didn't want to get bulky, but I don't want to get SKINNY... I just want to be healthy and fit. I believe that I won't bulk up, but I will gain a lot of muscle.

I plan on continuing crossfit for another year on top of doing some cardio outside of the box. I was running 4 miles last year every day and I think I was over doing it, especially with my weight and so forth. I am going to incorporate atleast 2-3 miles every other day, but lately I just haven't had the time, so I need to make the time... I really hate running and I'm sure there are other things I can do but until I become a member at another gym running outside is just going to have to do... I am looking forward to shedding some fat and just getting leaner. Hopefully my eating can get under control, because I have been eating horrible for the last few days.and I've already had a shitty start to this week. Paleo eating needs to be incorporated and maybe Eat to Perform can help me out with this. Okie dokie... thats all for now..> i need to get back to work.

Extended Challenge

Alright...

So since March 21st I had completed my 30 day challenge! I went faithfully for 28 days... I hurt my achilles and could barely walk! Although I didn't work out 30 days straight I went right back to working out on a bum ankle. I just sat on a stationery bike and did it for an hour. Minimal pain. As soon as my ankle was at 80% I was back at it. I did not complete the squat challenge, but my ankle did not allow it.

I have not weighed myself but mid way through the challenge I lost 5 lbs so I'm sure I have lost a few lbs... at least I'm hoping.

I have made working out daily a habit. ALL GAS NO BREAKs has been my motto since my ankle got better. I have been running about 4-5 miles a day on the elliptical and then doing Nike Training Camp circuits through my handy dandy app I downloaded! I absolutely LOVE this app and although some of the work out is hard I try to push through the 15-30 minute circuits.

I was introduced to Cross Fit, which is a strengthening program that helps burn your fat and get you stronger with out getting too bulky.  I thought about it and judged it to being way too hard but after hearing about the work outs from my sister(inlaw who i just call my sister)... it made me more and more interested. I got my first taste of CF on April 13th for free at CrossFit Invictus and that place was amazing! Really motivational members and the work out was crazy!! I loved every sweaty second of it!!! I had another free class on April 20th with the potential CF box I am going to join and it was brutal, but I did it and I plan on joining come May 6th. I am going to push my body to get through this... along with that I am going to get on the PALEO DIET!! If you don't know what that is... google it or await the next few blogs on my process... I just might enlighten you.

I have always been very happy with myself... I'm not saying I'm not happy with it right now, but I am getting to a point in my life where I want to change it to be happy and HEALTHY. I recently have been taken off my medication for diabetes and my doctor informed me that I am no longer a diabetic.  I can't blame my weight or sleepiness on my diabetes... I have controlled it and I would like to keep it this way. I think jumping on the Paelo diet and continuing my workouts will definitely help me become a healthier person and I can't wait to post pictures of my transformation. 

I need to set my goals and try my hardest to complete them.  I completed my 30 day challenge goal now I need to bust through this next challenge...  WHOLE 30 paleo diet... I think I can do this... I have set this goal and I hope to fit into a size 18 comfortably by this summer. I know that is not a huge goal but I was at a 22/24 now I'm at a 20 comfortably... I can get into an 18, but I definitely trim a little more off. So this is my new challenge...

Goals:

1) Complete WHOLE 30 Paleo
2) Fit into an 18 size pants
3) Hike Iron Mtn or Mt. Woodson
4) Motivate someone to live a healthier or more physical lifestyle.

See you guys in a month! :)

Fitness Challenge

So... I was on a very strict diet last year about this time and for 6 months straight I did so well. I lost 50 lbs and was taken off my diabetes medication... then the winter hit!! OH GOODNESS... I hate holidays... I forget all about diets and healthy living. I do blame it on the holidays because everyone bakes and gives presents of FOOD!! I hate denying presents and especially if it is CHEESECAKE!!

Well I've gained about 25 lbs back and I wanted to cry! I could feel my body changing again and becoming lazy and not wanting to do anything... That all stopped last week when I decided to go to the complex gym and just jump on a machine and sweat... I figured... "This isn't that hard... find some dedication and discipline and get it done Adeile!"

SO for the past 10 days I have been FAITHFULLY working out... I like my schedule. I go to work and right after work I drive to our complex's gym and put in a good 1hr or more work out. I want to shed weight so I know cardio will be the fastest way for now... but I have to do it in increments. I have been running/walking 3 miles on the eliptical at an incline and doing a few weights here and there. I have also joined the 60 day squat challenge... which was hard at first but now its getting better. Today is day 11 and its 110 squats... I think I'm going to add a weight to my squats. I feel really good after my work outs, but my hunger for crap food is still there.

I am going to have a salad from here on out for dinner. MEAT and salad... I need to. This is ridiculous. I know how to lose the weight I'm just lazy, but that will stop and now I will try to get my healthy life back in order. 

So hopefully in 20 days I will be back and talking about how I lost atleast 10 of the 25 I gained back. i would be extremely excited if that happened!! I just need to lost 10 lbs to actually feel better about my laziness and hopefully that will motivate me to lost 15 more! Okie dokie until next time...

Reading

So lately I have picked up a lot of reading. I think I have read at least 8 books since January 1st, 2013! After reading Fifty Shades of Grey 3 times (yes 3 times), I went on the hunt for more books to catch my interest for a few days. The only problem is I kept reading and kept buying books to read after the one I was currently reading. 

The books I have read since January 1st are the following:

Stolen Series by Elisabeth Naughton
-Stolen Fury
-Stolen Heat
-Stolen Seduction

-Enemies & Playmates by Darcia Helle

Eternal Guardian Series by Elisabeth Naughton
- Marked
- Entwined
- Tempted
- Enraptured

Now I am on my 9th book... the 5th book of the Eternal Guardian Series....

I was never really into the whole greek goddess, Gods, argonaut sort of stories, but this series is amazing!! It has romance, suspense, mystery, and so many twists and turns. I love it... the loyalty for their culture/people and for the humans, I LOVE IT!!! I need to get a new series to get attached to because the 6th book is not done yet.  I find myself getting lost into these books but don't know why... I never really was a reader in the last few years, but I do remember reading as a young kid in elementary school.  I do read a lot of smutty stuff, but hey... nothing like reading about it if I'm not having it myself! LOL Well I think I'm going to start blogging about my books and just writing reviews on my opinons and thoughts of the books I read, because sometimes I want to share them with people but nobody really cares so much for things that aren't real! LOL Well I do... it gives me some sort of escapre from the real world and all the trials and tribulations and stress I deal with on a daily!!

I just hope one day an argonaut drops down in front of me lol... or someone similar to him! LOL

FAILED GOALS!!!

Goals for 2011


EPIC FAIL!!!  I did a whopping 40% this year... sheesh... I mean really half of these are just because I am lazy or uber busy with work... but really? UGH I FAIL!! Time to make a new list... I'm already almost done with January. HOpefully I will get at least to like 70% next year. I will be making a few repeats bc I didn't get to do them this past year... so we'll see.

1. Take a picture of my nephew EVERYDAY.

2. Read a novel each month (any novel by any author).

3. ELEVATED at least 4 times this year.

4. Attend Rugby 7s w/ the girls!

5. Find a Dentist & make an appointment

6. Celebrate as many holidays with my nephew as possible (if not ALL of them)

7. Another tattoo (preferably a cultural one)

8. Start up at 24 again... slowly get into a routine!

9. Keep the room tidy

10. Purchase new work out shoes (coaching shoes)

11. Pay off 50% of my major credit card

12. Visit my grand parents more often then usual.

13. Make time to visit the loved ones at rest...

14. Make a trip to Texas

15. Make a trip to the eastcoast

16. Start planning Family Reunion (TAUANUU side) (contact family members)

17. Shop for NEEDS rather then WANTS

18. Go to Hawaii in JULY & NOVEMBER

19. Keep in contact with my family across the big ol' Pacific Ocean (email/FB/Call)

20. Purchase a new laptop

21. Attend Delaney's baptism

22. Lose atleast 30 lbs this year.

23. Visit Missouri

24. Plan Nephews 1st Bday party.

25. Go to a 49er game! GO COUSIN MIKE!!

26. Get cable in my room.

27. Keep up w/ pedi & mani's

28. Throw brother's 30th bday party!

29. Start Family Tree from my paternal & maternal sides.

30. Establish a relationship... with a potential lifetime partne

Farewell Gramps

Alalagafa "Jack" Fauolo Tauanu'u... the only grandfather I really got to know growing up. He was special... he was a very stern man with a great foundation on how he lived his life and how his family lived. Although some may debate his loyalty and fairness in monetary or materialistic values... his love he had for each and everyone of his children were all equal.

My gpa fought a battle for about a year and some months. He fought his battle against lung cancer which rapidly spread over the year. He was strong... never wanting to give up. He tried with the treatments... he tried with a long trip to New Zealand to try a natural source of trying to cure his cancer or just slow it down to give him more time... He made an admiral attempt on living...

On December 7th at 2:56 in the morning I lost my grandfather who I have known for 27 years. This was only my second time actually witnessing someone take their last breath. He wanted to take his last breath in his home... not in a hospital with wires connected to him, with strangers in the next room. He wanted to have his final living moments in the comfort of his own home... with in the last few hours of his life our family came together to say our farewells to him... sing to him to talk to him. He left us peacefully during those last few moments. I will never forget my last hour with him... I said my prayers to our Almighty to ease his pain and to let his heart rest. It wasn't even minutes after i said my prayer that the nurse in the room told me that he was on his way "home"... I felt a huge wave of panic over whelm my body and I just stared at him... his breathing became very quiet and shorter with every breath... he inhaled slowly and one by one each family member was woken up in the house. He was surrounded by his family... his wife, children, grand-children, and siblings. As he took his last breath I felt a void... and the tears came... and it felt like his pain left him and transfered to all of us in the room. He was gone... 2:56 in the morning and there was nothing but tears and cries of agony in the room. I will never forget that moment when my grandfather finally left us.

I didn't get my chance to give my testimony in front of the church, friends, and other family memebers. I don't have that public speaking ability. I wish I did. I wish I could have gained the strength to walk up to the stage and just talk about him. So I'm using my blog to do it...

Grandpa... He was the only grandfather I got to share my life with. From preschool to college, he was there to help celebrate those moments. He watched me grow from a little girl who would throw tantrums when she didn't get what she wanted to a young woman with a strong head on her shoulders that was ready to take over her own destiny in life.  I will always remember our family gatherings... all the vacations I would stay with my grandparents. The routines we had when I stayed in their home... Wake up... eat breakfast and out the door tackling hours of tasks just for him to come home and rest for another graveyard shift for ARCO gas company. Watching him work for Agape, doing his weekly duties for our heavenly Father and I would go with him to the bank where he promised after we were done we would go eat somewhere, usually McDonalds! I was always bribed with food and it worked for a while.  I will miss him around the house. Sitting at the table with stacks of papers ... sitting with him while he watched Pi'iga (wrestling), football, and other sports. He would always watch and get so excited to see The Rock and he would really get into the WWF program, I wanted to tell him it was all fake, but he loved it so much I couldn't do it.  We would always debate about which was the better team... San Diego Chargers or the Denver Broncos.... he would win because Denver was so much better then the Chargers growing up!  I will definitely miss Christmas.  The time where Gpa Santa would come out and hand out presents... you see if he wasn't working that day it was a great treat for us to get to spend with him. It was rare that he would be able to spend the entire day with us, and when he was there it was always a great joy. I was always the little elf that helped. I mean I have never really been LITTLE, but he would always say "ok little elf... or santa's little helper".  I will definitely miss these holidays with him. He was the voice of our family. He definitely holds a special place in my heart and is a constant reminder about how much my family means to me... I do not have a grandfather to share any more of my life time achievements with... he won't be there to say "Young lady... good job"... I will miss his smile and his laugh... he will forever live in our hearts... but if I could rewind a little I would tell him how much he was someone I looked up to and hopefully one day my children will know how much of a great man he was.

I do miss him... even as its been a month since we have laid him to rest... it is still fresh.

I miss you grandpa!!!

September 29, 1939 - December 7, 2011. Rest in heavenly peace grandpa!

Coaching

I envy coaches who can handle and deal with the emotional and mental parts of their athletes lives, while also trying to help with skills and fundamentals of their sport..

I'm a coach to a junior varsity  team. I have a lot of different personalities this time around. I have been coaching for 4 seasons and this season is probably my toughest.  I have not really had to deal with the emotional and mental toughness as much prior to this year. The girls I have range from simple, sweet, quiet athlete to rambunctious, lively, and down right disrespectful atheletes.  Skill level is up and down the charts and I believe that there really isn't a sense of guidance on the court for the team.  We have 3 team captains and not one really has that role of a leader.

I have never really dealt with so many different types of attitudes before but this is a good lesson for me. I need to firm up a bit and deal with things sooner rather then later, nip things in the bud right away. I feel as if they want so many chances to do things and the girls have excuses for everything they do wrong or right. I give feedback and they question it, I have practice plans and they want to suggest all sorts of things that in my opinion don't need to be worked on. Individually we have great players with great skills... team wise, our energy is high starting off, but towards the middle or end of the game we tend to fizzle out. Lack of focus has a lot to do with it too... I give consequences and it still doesnt stick. I am trying to get through this season stronger then I came into it, but its a battle.

I am hoping the team turns around attitude wise and just hope that we can finish strong as a team. Skill wise we are fine, we have things we can work on, but we have 3 more weeks left... I hope I can hang!

BlabBlog

So it has been quite sometime and I'm failing at this ONE post a month deal!!!

So it is August and my last post was in April!! Wow a whopping 4 months ago! SO much has gone on but things haven't really changed much.

W/His UGLYDOLL :)

May- Went by really fast. We pretty much finished our regular club volleyball season and were preparing for our big tournament in Arizona. Spent some time with my besties and had a wonderful visit from Leilehua Low all the way from Maui!!! We put in to a different apartment complex because our neighborhood was getting a little rough, so we put in an application for an apartment complex in Tierrasanta and were approved!!! Whooohoo!!!

Nainoa has gotten super big already and is very strong!!! He has a HUGE head but thats ok... his big brain is in there!! LOL This is him at 5 months...

Handsome after bathtime!

June- 9 days into June we had to pack up and move from North Park back to my old stompping grounds of Tierrasanta!!! We moved back to the suburbs and LOVE IT!! Although the parking sucks, we love the quietness and the family atmosphere. Then 2 weeks later we left to Arizona for our 5 day tournament... Festival!! Our 14's age group were the only team to go and we LOVED it. They had a lot of fun and did very well. They finished 24 out of 100 teams, so that was a great finish for our team. But the pool times were super hard, but we did what we had to do!!!  This was Nainoa's first plane ride ever!!! He did so well and although it was only an hour long he was a champ!!! The ride home was a little more difficult then the ride to AZ, but it was late and he was tired!!!

Maui-HI, July 2011 Happy Nainoa!!!

July- Best month ever!!! As soon as we came back from AZ we had to get ready for our trip to Maui!!! We left on the 7th and returned on the 23rd!! We had such a great time and I will never forget everything we did. I went to Oahu to visit Carol and we had some fun, although my cousin hates the outdoors, we did do a lot. I got to swim with a turtle and that was so cool.  My favorite beach was Black Rock beach. I was too chicken to climb the rock and jump off, but it was cool watching people jump!! Nainoa loved the water. He didn't cry at all in the cold water. He even fell asleep to the rythm of the waves. I hope he likes the ocean when we go back to Cali beaches!! I probably gained like 15 lbs while being in Hawaii!!! I miss the grindz and the beautiful scenery and espcially the soft sand at the beaches!!! Then back to reality!! Had my cousin Malia's wedding to prepare for. Bridal shower was a success and then off to the bachelorette party 2 weeks after. Whooohoooo!!! Pops turned 53 and Nainoa got to spend his evening with Gpa for his 53rd bday.

My handsome and me :)

Now we're in August and it is half way done. Time flies way too fast!!! My cousins Bachelorette party was probably the most fun I've had  (other then hawaii) in a long time!!! Volleyball started on the 1st so back to no life again!!! But Nainoa is finally crawling!! After numerous attempts he finally got the gist of it. He is really fast too!! It's funny, he went from only walking and holding stuff, to crawling... He still prefers to walk while holding onto the furniture or our hands, but I'm glad he is crawling first. Now the house is becoming baby proofed... gates for the kitches, locks on the drawers and cabinets... cushioned corners of the furniture and so forth. I will take pictures and post them later, but its pretty funny!! Along with that huge event in life... my cousin Malia Liufau finally got married. It has been years and people (as well as her) were giving up. Then she met Pele Ta'aga and her life changed. She is now happily married!!! I was lucky enough to be apart of her wedding party and I met a lot of cool people in her line. The girls were all so sweet and funny!! I was one of the younger ones but I fit right in!!! The wedding was a blast and I even got my parents to even take a funny picture in the photobooth!!! But that is the update for now...

MOM/POPS/ME at the wedding :)

Other then that everything is going well for us here in beautiful San Diego... Hopefully I make my trip to Maui for the Garcia wedding!!! :)

Until the next blog... Tofa Soifua!!!

 

A.H.M.U

I am the daughter of Saui'a AhMu, who is the son of Fevaea'i Frank AhMu, who is the son of July AhMu, who is the son of AhMu. The fifth generation of this family. I have grown up to be blind to my father's family. I am pretty sure I have a lot to learn and it wasn't until I moved half way across the country to finally learn more about my 4 letter branding.

Apparently my entire extended family is Mormon, other then my dad, his siblings, and some of his cousin's we grew up meeting. I do know that there is a book in the Mormon religion that holds all of the families names starting from the old man AhMu. I really only know my first cousins on my dad & mom's side and some extended family on my father's maternal side, but that is about it. I would really like to get answers. Answers that my dad can not give me nor do I think my aunties can either. I feel as if I'm lost when it comes to the earliest times of my ancestors and I want to try and figure out who is who and where the branches continue to grow. I know a little bit a bout my great great grandfather, but only that of what is written in an article written by a missionary for their magazine or short storied book. Not too sure.  I want to know more about my mother's side of the family as well, but that tree extendeds so far I can't even get past my great grand mother.

I grew up never really having "family reunions", because our immediate families lived in remote areas from each other, there really wasn't a reason for that. Although my father's side lived thousands of miles away on the little island of Samoa, our mother land, we never had a reunion either. I just think that in their minds it is way to expensive (which it is) and not really worth it being that family functions go on every so often... and when I mean family functions, I mean funerals or weddings! Sad but true.

I guess lately I have been real accustomed to trying to figure out who is related to me and who isn't is because I want to continue my life with someone with the same cultural backgrounds. I'm not racist or anything like that, but I want to be able to find a Samoan or just polynesian man to share my life with.  I have really only dated 3 Samoan me and 1 Tongan man and I may have been related to atleast ONE of those 3 Samoan fellas! I am not too sure, but it was a little too close to comfort when we found out about each other's families and who was who and so forth. 

I just hope one day I can find someone who shares the same culture as me and we not be related in any form or way... although I do not discriminate towards other nationalities or cultures, I just PREFER my choices of men from the Polynesian islands.

Well this went to a whole different direction!! Hahahaha. I hope I find out the details of my Great2xGrandfather, who he was married to all 5 marriages and the children him and his wives had and their kids and so forth. I know that I am related to the Rivers, Crichtons, and AhMu's. That is just on my Papa's side alone. There are tons and tons of information I should gather, but if I ever go back to Missouri and talk to Willard AhMu, he will have to retell me the story all over again, and this time I'm going to record/jot notes down, so I can make my own family tree for myself. Phew I know that there are AHMUs all over and hopefully one day if ever we find our Chinese descendants we can meet them, but my gggrandfather was given that name by the man who had taken him on his voyage to Samoa.  So really... was that his real name? Hmmmm

Well i jsut thought I'd post about that because the other day I was looking up the AHMU name (thank you GOOGLE) and it came up with a lot of posts from years ago and the article from the morman magazine.

My search continues and hopefully people rememeber everything they are told about the old man AHMU so it can continue to be passed down. :)

Love Bugg

When Nainoa was born I gave him his lil nick name "love bug". Well it was either myself or his mama... But I'm pretty sure I called him that right out the womb... But neways...

He's a whopping 10 weeks and 6 days today and growing extremely fast! I just wanted to update the world on my nephew. He has become super alert and he loves to "talk" and recognizes us and loves to laugh. He has grown to be 24 inches already and at his last check up he was 13lbs 12oz. That was 2 weeks ago and he has surely gained a pound already!! I love when he lays and talks or laughs when we talk to him. I wish they could stay this cute forever, but then they grow up!! HAHA...

I hate being away from him all day, but daily photos are still in tact thanks to mommy & aunty (me)!! I can't wait until he starts crawling and exploring everything. He's such a handsome fella and hopefully he keeps those long eye lashes of his!! Well here is a picture...

Aunty <3s u so much love bugg!! :)



2.0.1.1

So I have been inspired to do a yearly goal list. I started last year and I failed. I mean if I were taking a test I got a D -LOL... so in my eyes... I FAILED... But I did accomplish some of my BIG goals that I probably would have never really would have thought I would get done. SO with 1 month already down in 2011, and we're 7 days into the second month of 2011 I've decided to finally get my act together and make this list of goals, some not so important then others, but still I plan on doing a little better this year then last!  (I started this in February and posted in March #FAIL)

Goals for 2011

1. Take a picture of my nephew EVERYDAY.
2. Read a novel each month (any novel by any author).
3. ELEVATED at least 4 times this year.
4. Attend Rugby 7s w/ the girls!
5. Find a Dentist & make an appointment
6. Celebrate  as many holidays with my nephew as possible (if not ALL of them)
7. Another tattoo (preferably a cultural one)
8. Start up at 24 again... slowly get into a routine!
9. Keep the room tidy
10. Purchase new work out shoes (coaching shoes)
11. Pay off 50% of my major credit card
12. Visit my grand parents more often then usual.
13. Make time to visit the loved ones at rest...
14. Make a trip to Texas
15. Make a trip to the eastcoast
16. Start planning Family Reunion (TAUANUU side) (contact family members)
17. Shop for NEEDS rather then WANTS
18. Go to Hawaii in JULY & NOVEMBER
19. Keep in contact with my family across the big ol' Pacific Ocean (email/FB/Call)
20. Purchase a new laptop
21. Attend Delaney's baptism
22. Lose atleast 30 lbs this year.
23. Visit Missouri
24. Plan Nephews 1st Bday party.
25. Go to a 49er game! GO COUSIN MIKE!!
26. Get cable in my room.
27. Keep up w/ pedi & mani's
28. Throw brother's 30th bday party!
29. Start Family Tree from my paternal & maternal sides.
30. Establish a relationship... with a potential lifetime partner.

Okie dokie... I'm only 3 months into the year!! Bwahahaha But hey better late then never. I've already done some of these goals already!! Good luck to me! :)

Dec. 22nd 2010 6:15p.m

This day... will forever be important to me.

7:45am- "Del I'm going to the doc's now, I'll be back in an hour"... I looked up and knodded my head and went back to sleep, or atleast tried. I pretty much knew my butt had to be up because I was expecting someone to come help us out at around 8:30. Of course she's lost so I have to drive down the street to meet her to drive her back to the house... I was up.

Explained what needed to be done, how it needs to be done and where everything she needed could be found. I grabbed Pudge put him in the room and attempted to fall back asleep. NOTHING... I looked at the clock and it said 9:30. Sent my sister a text asking where she was because it was well over an hour since she left for her appointment. Blaring in my ear "We dont have to worry about no Groc--" (anthony hamilton's COOL)...  I cut off the ring before it can continue... "Where are you sister?"
"Ummmm I am going to have him today, he's coming"
"WHAT? OMG OK OKWHAT?"
"I will be home in a little bit and then I have to go to the hospital with in the hour because I'm 5cm dialated"
"I'll come get you"
"No I'm fine I will see you in a little bit."

My heart started to beat fast and I was sooooooooooooo excited! I wanted to scream and let everyone know that the day was here and my nephew was going to be born! I think I was more excited then my sister was! The rain was crazy the week before up until the day. It rained all morning and for some odd reason it started to clear. I was excited and happy that the day was finally hear, texting my parents, friends, and family. She wasn't due for another 2 weeks and 2days. He was EARLY! We had not gotten everything ready and we had about 58 minutes to get it all done. Leilani and I had so many errands to run but we had run out of time and I was fine with it.

Owen came home and packed up their bags and took off to La Jolla. I stayed back to wash their clothes, yes because that was one of our many errands that day. I finished up and left to pick up my cousin and mom. We arrived at the hospital abour 230-3pm and got to see her. Leilani said "Oh Del let the others come in so they can say hi because you're going to be here during the delivery"... Roger that... went and sat my nervous, excited behind in the waiting room. It felt like 20 minutes but it was already 5:30pm when Owen comes out- "She has to have a C-section so she will be going to the operating room "... This made me so mad! I wanted to be there to help her push but it just wasn't God's will to have him naturally. His little heart beat was getting slower and he was tired of pushing, so medical attention was called and the best next thing was to be done.

I sat in the waiting room, eating, stuffing my face so nervous for my sister. This was something we DIDN'T want but as long as he was delivered with the least complications we were going to take it. Quick prayer and she was gone to the operating room.

At about 6:27pm they rolled him out into the hallway. I quickly pulled out the phone and started snapping away!! LOL Thank goodness for the Blackberry because it captured his first appearance to the family...


Nainoa Awa Fevaea'i AhMu
8lbs 5oz--20.5 inches
12/22/2010 6:15pm



Here is the "welcome to the family" photo. He was so beautiful. He was strong. He was so light. But most of all he was well and healthy! He was my sunshine in this awful world we live in. Nothing mattered anymore. He was my brother's child but my heart. He was my brother (the first born) & sister (the first born)'s ... first born. Sauia & Sally AhMu's first grandchild. Bubba, A'i & myself... our first nephew. He's special and he doesn't even know it. He was perfect all wrapped up in that little swaddle blanket and he was alert and ready and willing to meet all of us. I was in awwww of him and was so happy he was here.



Sleepy time w/ mommy!



It has been a pretty peaceful 3 weeks since he's been home and today makes his 3 week mark. He is a strong little man and squeals and cries when he's 1) hungry 2) has a dirty diaper or 3) wants to be held. All three valid reasons to cry right? I dont know about #3 but we're working on that! Here he is 20 days old (yesterday). It's a little dark but this is my handsome love bug and his mommy.

Like I said... December 22, 2010 will be a date forever important to me. I'm glad that on 11/3/2003 Leilani & Owen started dating, 4/10/10 they married, and then 12/22/10 they had their first born. I love my nephew and I will be the crazy aunty that runs around w/ her finger on the camera button on my phone and my camera ready and willing to take pictures of every movement, every cute facial expression, every angle, EVERY DAY! I will capture your life Nainoa on a little camera each and every day, unless aunty's not here. Then mommy has to! :) 

I love my lil prince charming, my handsome, my lovey... my favorite <3 bugg!! 



Happy 3weeks <3Bugg

Aunty <3s you!!!

Elevated: Spoken Word

Thank you Dessarina for taking me to yet another ELEVATED experience!!!

If you love poetry, if you love hearing people perform poetry... you need to experience this!!

People perform pieces on all aspects of life: love, politics, health, sex, family, child, poverty, and the list can go on and on an on. Pretty much ANYTHING!!! A color, a paper, the wind, the beat of your heart!

I feel alot of the emotions and have been through some of their experiences or I try to at least. A lot of the people who I have seen perform at Spoken Word are pretty intense.  Its an element that I wish I could fall into, but I dont think outside of the situation... metophorically. I can try, but I feel like I wouldn't be as touching like most of these men & women who get on stage and RELEASE...

I just wanted to post about my experience at this past Spoken Word I went to. Rudy Fransisco was the special guest and he was amazing. I of course YOUTUBE'd him as soon as I got home and have listened to almost every piece he has performed that was captured. He was pretty deep with his pieces. I loooooove "Im not a love poet" ... esp the opening line "I want you to bite my lip until I can no longer speak, and then suck my exgirlfriends name out of my mouth just to make sure she doesn't come up in our conversation!"... the rest of this poem is amazing. I want this... I really do... I want to read this out loud to someone... Or vice versa. It was super deep!!!

There were other poets that got up but one in particular, who I wish I recorded... WAS AMAZING. She did a piece about the women in her family and the everyday diseases that they conquer. It was deeeeeeeeep!! But April (thats all I remember) was amazing!!!

But yes I want to go these functions more often and this year I hope I get a little more into it. Try and write a few pieces... just let the words flow... I want to be felt like this line:

". I swear when our lips touch, I can taste the next 60 years of my life..."-Rudy Fransisco

I wanna hear more... I <3 YOUTUBE for hooking me up with more poetry to listen to because I don't have HBO for some Brave New Writers!! :)

2011... Hello there!!!

Ok so its already day 7 of 2011 and I have yet to reflect on 2010!! None the less have I done much differently from 2010 this week! LOL UGH... its ok... I'm sure ya'll weren't even paying any attention anyways. Kind of like me! No but really. I believe 2010 was pretty cramped with ... WORK, WORK, WEDDING, WORK, VBALL, WORK, WEDDING, WORK , VBALL, & BABY NEPHEW!! What a life right? Well I made it through, with a head held high and a smile on my face. I really can't complain- other then the fact there were so many events I can barely remember where it started!!!

So lets reflect on my goals and see how well I can grade myself! :) Lets see how I did last year!! Bwahahaha

2010 goals:

1. Make my Dr. Appt for my yearly check up !  I did it & I kept going for my diabetic check up as well!! CHACHING!!!
2. Get my prescription filled and actually keep up with the medication<< Ohhh yeah I've been making it *takes pill right now*
3. Go to the gym 3x a week or more<< EPIC FAIL!!! lol I went 1 time the entire year... DAAAAAAAAAmn!!!
4. Save $200 a month << FAIL!!!! I could barely save $20.00!!
5. Pay 80% of the credit cards<< K I did like 60% then all my cards limit in creased and I FAILED miserably at NOT using them!
6. Keep the car clean and shiny<< Well... nope sorry ALTY, mommy was uber busy!!! But u did come into 2011  FRESH & CLEAN from the rain! :)
7. Drink less<< YESSSSSSSSSS sir!! I slowed a lot on chuggin that bottle... more like sipped here and there!!!
8. Spend more time with the keikis (take them to the movies on the weekends and such) << I'mma say yes, bc it was more then last year, we hung out and I went to Vitas games!! #PROUDAUNTY!!!
9. Join a sports league << Coronado Players baby!! #44
10. lose 30lbs by April << #F.A.I.L I swear I gained it!!
11. Throw the best bridal showers ever!<< CHECK!!! I hope all the guests had fun... and I even threw a babyshower too!! LOL
12. Buy myself a Coach purse <<Nope, but my daddy bought me one!!!
13. Get to work on time<< #EPICFAILURE I swear I am still working on it!!!
14. Find a Dentist & make an appt.<< NOPE... I need to tho... the teeth lookin HORRIBLE!!!
15. Re-tint my front windows<<< NOPE!
16. Get a Tattoo<< CHECK... a lil reminder I'm a princess @ heart!!!
17. Buy a TV for the room<< Well I'mma say CHECK although I didnt buy it but my daddy bought it!! :) I <3 my dad!!
18. Quit Smoking<< This should just be the ultimate GRADE right here... I did it!! AGAIN... and I doubt I'll be turning back... I can't even stand the smell nemore!!!
19. Visit the grandparents more then usual<< #FAIL Gma I'll be visiting more now... I'll try neways!
20. Small celebration for tbe bday<< OMG I dont even remember what I did for the bday so ummm I'll say CHECK!!!
21. Finish Eclipse & Breaking Dawn<< CHECK... Can't wait for Breaking Dawn the movie!! Wwwhooohoooo
22. Clean out my closet<< CHECK... even if it took the last month of the year... I did it!!! Shoes & clothes!!!
23. Learn to surf (again)<< #FAIL When we went it was too much for me... so I said "next year" LOL
24. Go cruiser biking with shawtypai (and whoever else wants to go)<< #FAIL the bike is continuing to collect dust!! LOL
25. Win more games vball season then last << CHECK ... proud of my girls they prevailed from where they started last year!!!
26. Make appt with Optometrist<< CHECK... and I have a stigmatism!! Glasses action!!!
27. Blogg atleast 2x a week<< #FAIL but I believe with all the ELEVATED pieces I may just be inspired to be here more often... releasing some randomness!!
28. Go to Vegas just for fun<< #FAIL Das ok it will be yet another GOAL!!!
29. Keep in better touch with friends afar<< Thank u FB & Gchat & BBM!!
30. Go to a Charger game<< I went to a tailgate... does that count? LMAOO probably not, but whatever I'll say YES!!!
31. Dye my hair<< Did it more times then needed ... it is in need right now!!
32. Keep up with my nails/feet<<< FAIL!!! I did in the beginning, but didn't have the time or funds...
33. Visit Barstow with Dess one of these weekends<< NOPE... I almost did but then the girls changed their minds!
34. Visit Northern California<< CHECK... Sacramackramento in da house!! Good times w/ da Hafoka family!35. Watch the sunset on the pier (any pier)<< Ummm yeah nope!
36. Climb up Cows Mtn.<< NOPE... sorry bout it
37. Get a Black Berry phone (lol) << CHECK ... thank you sister Leilani for my bday present!! I love u so much... best phone ever!!!
38. Make a diet plan and stick to it.<< BWAHAHAHA FAIL!!!

Oh damn... *drum roll please*

19/38 = 50%
Letter Grade= F :(

But you know what.. THATS HALF of my goals... That is more then I expected it to be. I mean I was hoping I'd get atleast like a B or C but hey I'll take what I take bc thats all I did! THis year there is an extra lil person in my life and I hope not only will he motivate me but maybe keep me on track! LOL We'll see!!  But yeah

My goals will be put up later... Hmmm I have another lengthy list, but I gotta be practical, but also challenging!!

See you guys in a few... Hours I hope!!

Thank  you 2010... you gave me a new sister-in-law, a new cousin-in-law, plenty new friends, memories, and MY <3 BUGG NAINOA A.F. AHMU!! I LOVE U NEPH!!

2011... I am waiting with open arms w/ what ever you bring me... I'm gonna saddle up and take you for a ride!! Hopefully anyways! :)

I need....

so much I can't even blog about it right now!!!

I am in need of it I just need to explode!!! Seriously... I need it bad...


so bad ... real bad!!


I just need it!!!

G.O.U.T.

So it was about 3 months ago that my test results came back and the nurse from my doctor's office called and said "Adeile your tests came back and your uric acid is very high, your chances of getting gout are high so we want to prescribe alloprunol to control that"... 2 days later I had my 1st GOUT attack.

Lets just educate ourselves...

Q: What is GOUT?
Medical Answer: A painful form of arthritis that is caused by high uric acid levels in your blood (hyperuricemia).
DELL's Answer: AN EXTREMELY PAINFUL NUISANCE IN YOUR JOINTS... IT EFFING HURTS!!!


I've been getting gout attacks for about 3 months and I hate it. I mean seriously I am trying to avoid foods that cause this but it seems like EVERYTHING makes these flares happen. I need to just eat lettuce and drink water!! :-(

Well I hope that I can change my diet for good to actually not worry about GOUT!! Medication is not working... I need something stronger!!!!

*sighs*

Strength

"Be strong"
"You need to stay strong for your family"
"You need to be strong for your grandma & grandpa"


Where am I going to find the strength to be THAT strong? I always tell people to be strong and people do the same to me... but really how can you be strong with such heavy heartaches, pain, uncertainty, cloudiness, impatience, tears, questions, and so forth?

I love how families come together to gain strength, but it drains people. I will try... to be strong. But there are no guarantees.

Volleyball

SO majority of my friends/family know that my life from mid August until December is packed with un exuberance of VOLLEYBALL. I really have no "outside" life other then volleyball, because I put so much energy into it I don't really do anything else. Just to stay focused and REST when needed. I do however feel like I neglect my outside social life (friends) and memorable moments (family) for this part time job of mine, but in the end I know they would understand.

This year was probably the most  hectic year ever for me... and its not done yet. I started off AUGUST 16th with high school tryouts, and then onward it went. With high school practice EVERYDAY after a 8 hour day in the office, and then in September started middle school. YES middle school. I never played organized sports FOR my middle school, but the district I am in provides this for their middle schools with about 10 different sports, and it is an experience they will never forget! It gets them ready for high school and so forth. But I ran that program this year and I was not planning on it, but I tried and it was really hard to work out middle school & high school and work my regular job. I was so burnt at the end of the day!!!

The entire month of October I did volleyball for almost 30 days straight. Oh and did I mention I was diagnosed with gout and the entire month of October I had a gout flare that never went away??  I mean it was the worst experience ever. Trying to coach volleyball while barely even being able to STAND!!! I did it though... and I still am doing it. I get the flare up often and it really really takes a lot out of me. But yeah that was that with gout!!! *rolls my eyes*

November is here and my JV high school team is done for the season and they finished with a winning record. I was definitely proud of their hard work and perservance during this season, because honestly I wasn't sure how we were going to do with the skill of my team being spread out, but they definitely worked extremely hard and we finished with a win against a team we lost to earlier in the season.

With high school & middle school finishing up CLUB season begins. I am extremely excited for this season because we will be travleing to LA/OC areas and even Phoniex. My evenings will be free of volleyball for the most part. I love coaching these girls and it is a great experience, but it is hard work. When I was younger I would have never realized how much work is put into coaching, until these past few years. I just hope these girls take what we teach them and flourish. I have seen a lot of the girls excel and that is where the gratification comes from I guess.. just their starting points and how they progress over the years.

Well thats it on volleyball... tryouts are almost over and then the teams will be situated. I am extremely happy and sad at the same time, because the group of girls I had were so much fun and although we had a lot of rough points in the season, they progressed and I am so happy for that. Now.... on to club!!!

*sighs*

Best Aunty EVER!

Well well well...

I have finally made it back to my BLOGG and boy has the year flew by!  Its already August and we're in the 4th week and there are only 2 days in the last week of August!! PHEW time flies!!! (Literally)

Well I've made it through two weddings and lets just say... with out any regrets, I am glad it is OVER! I enjoyed both weddings I was in and I'm glad to have put it all behind and keep it as a memory. Congratulations to Owen & Leilani AHMU (my brother & his beautiful wife) and also Congratulations to Jarret (TEE) & Naomi (OMI) SA'O!!! I am glad to have extended my family with two more members...

With that said... there will be another addition to the family come January 2011!!! Leilani & Owen are expecting their first child!!! I can not express how excited I am to finally be an "AUNTY"... I mean I am Keala & Vita's aunty, but they are my best friends children so technically they are not really my niece and nephew, but I love them just as if they were!!! But my brother's son is going to be born in January and I am going to be the best Aunty possible for the little booger!!! My prince charming is definitely a healthy baby right now and I got to hear his heart beat for the first time yesterday. I had to fight back the tears because I didn't want the doctor to think there was something wrong with me!! But I am definitely ready and willing to do whatever it is that baby boy wants and needs me for.

I've already started planning the baby shower, and although my pockets are not deep enough, I will make it happen!!! LOL No but seriously I can't wait and I am steadily going to make everything work out for my nephews arrival!!! :)

Well that is pretty much all I wanted to blog about today,.. Gotta get back to work...

:) Happy Taco Tuesday!!